Why “Thinkering”? Because I Can’t Stop Tinkering with my Thinking.

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Knitting: Currently this shawl is on the needles and has been for far too long. Must. Keep. Knitting. So many other projects await. The pattern’s Old Shale and the yarn’s Filatura Di Crosa Brilla, Color 432. Oh that color. It almost blinds me. I love it so much. And wouldn’t you know, 432 has been discontinued! Will I have enough to knit it the length I want? I think so but it’ll be darn close. See the finished shawl on the left. That’s the length I’m heading for. Stay tuned.

FullSizeRender5I like that shawl on the left. It’s the Crow Waltz Rectangle made with uber-expensive Blue Heron Metallic yarn. The main body of it is Blue Grass (I even like the name), and it’s knitted in an uneven linen stitch. Yup, nice.  FullSizeRender3Thinkering: If you’ve ever thought about the passage of time do have a look at “Ongoingness: The End of a Diary” by Sarah Manguso. The author has been keeping a journal for over 25 years. She doesn’t quote from it in her book, she just writes about the doing of it. Apparently, when Manguso took time out to reread the whole thing she threw out all of one year because nothing really happened in it. Yikes. I’ve thrown out journals because too much was happening. However, the reason she keeps a journal at all is that she can’t stop. I hear you, sister. She sees her days disappearing down the drain without a trace, and it worries her. She wishes for fallow days with nothing at all going on so she can catch up. And all this has become more difficult for her now that she has a son. The journaling has switched from being about her to being about him. Where will this lead, she wonders. Hence her subtitle “The End of a Diary” I think. Compulsive? Overthinker? You bet she is. I so recognize all this. And the larger your family grows the more confusing the problem gets. What about when you have eleven wonderful grandchildren? Do you write their news out as well? How do you separate your news from their news? Do you actually have any news of your own anymore? Do you even have any thoughts of your own? Well, of course you do. You’re thinking about what to write in your journal, for example. Right?